I started blogging well over 15 years ago. This website was my income for a while. I met so many wonderful people. I was offered lots of lovely products and freelance work because of it. When covid hit I completely lost all momentum and I never really got it back.
Its still here, I still pay for hosting, but I hardly ever update it. I hardly keep up with social media. I’m not really the same person I was when I started this blog. So I don’t really know what to do with it. I love having a place to write my thoughts on things I care about, I like engaging with people about those things. Mostly it’s been video games discussion.
Recently, my theme I paid for seemingly stopped working and I probably could go and find out why but I just don’t have the energy to do so. Now I’m unsure if I want to try and rebuild it and retheme it, potentially even change domain and sort out redirects or do I just put in minimal effort and update it sporadically when I feel like it.
There are a lot of memories. A lot of friendships. A lot of my life went into this blog. But going back over so many past paid posts and I realise how inauthentic some of them have been. I started writing about single parenthood and my life after leaving a toxic relationship and living in a refuge. I needed an outlet. Now, I don’t write those things. I rarely write about family life anywhere. I still play video games and listen to music and like tattoos and love to read. I am trying to teach myself to draw. I occassionally upload raid content to YouTube.
Now its just as a blog kind of always was. An online journal. A place to share hobbies and interests. I am grateful for it but I don’t know what the future holds or what I’m holding on to having it here. Maybe I’ll feel inspired to do something with it but for now it’s just kind of a mess until I have the energy to fix it.
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